So, I've hit the point in my semester where I feel like I'm drowning.
I try to avoid these pessimistic posts. But hey, life happens.
I've accumulated a heaping amount of anxiety lately because I keep questioning my degree. I'm highly interested in Chemical Engineering, but I'm not performing very well in my courses.
I could blame the fact that I'm taking 18 credits, and that I'm working 14 hours per week. I could blame my poor internet connection at my apartment or the fact that I have been getting sick which is causing me to sleep more than usual.
But in reality, I always reach this point. Every semester starts out as new and exciting. Then comes the anxiety and cynicism.
I'm not sure what to do about it.
The thing is: if I weren't studying Chemical Engineering, I'm pretty sure my degree would be an entirely different focus. Nothing engineering-related. Probably not even maths/science.
It scares me a great deal.
Hopefully I will find a way to work through this. Hopefully in a week's time I will be happy and excited again and find something to hang onto to keep me afloat.
Until then, I'm going to wallow in my unreasonable amount of stress and hope that brings me to the motivation which I need to get by.
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