Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Red.

There was nothing interesting about the car ride to Wisconsin, sitting in the back seat while listening to the low murmurs of Josh and Chris' conversation under the muffled music playing.

With nothing to do, I felt gravity taking hold of my eyelids. I locked my elbow on the windowsill and rested my cheek on the knuckles of my limp hand.

I awoke to a world tinted in red. The sunset cast a stream of pink on everything, and dim white lights blinked rhythmically past the car from the streetlights, turned on in preparation for the darkness to come.

I began to watch the city go by.
Still, nothing interesting... until I saw the red curtain.

Driving past an apartment building, which seemed pretty ordinary a sight, I caught glimpse of a window with a red curtain.

Conceivably it was because of how distinct this particular window was from the others, but it drew my attention. I was struck by the thought of life going on in that window, behind that red curtain. Perhaps a family, struggling to make ends meet. Maybe a student attending a small college nearby, spending her Friday evening preparing for an upcoming exam. Possibly a young man who just found a job, living independently for the first time.

In the flash of the lives which might exist beyond that window with red curtain, my perspective grew to the entire structure: life going on in every room.

A family of four just starting dinner, because Dad worked late again. A young man passing the girl who lives a few doors down in the stairway, as she leaves for her yoga class. A couple living together, getting into their first real argument. A lonely man, sitting on his bed contemplating suicide. A single father and his little girl watching TV on the couch. An alcoholic woman drinking her third glass of the evening.

Isn't it beautiful how much life there is going on everywhere? Every person as complex as yourself: in every car driving on the interstate with you, in every building you pass as you drive to the city...

Incredible.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Andy.

He put his hand on the chair in front of me.
I found myself staring at it, examining it.
I noticed how they were slightly dry from the winter air, and there were small scars between his pointer and middle finger. I noticed that his nails were short but clean, and I found myself thinking about him cutting his nails every now and then. I wondered about his daily life. I thought about his hands typing on a keyboard, carrying books, holding the door open for someone behind him. I started to follow the veins up his arm, becoming aware of the person it was attached to.
I don't know whether I was tired or zoning out, but something about his hand mesmerized me. Once in a while, little things like that will catch my attention.
Sometimes it's when the girl sitting in the front of the room is idly playing with her hair.
Sometimes it's when the boy sitting next to me is running his pencil in between the wire spirals on the spine of his notebook.
Sometimes it's the boy walking to class with his headphones in, not checking the street before he crosses.
Today it was the hand I was looking at, resting on the chair in front of me.

Monday, February 18, 2013

twenty one pilots, anyone?

Nate and Tina introduced me to twenty one pilots. I bought Vessel, and I. Am. Obsessed.
Been listening to it non-stop. Every song on it is great.

I honestly can't choose a favorite to share with you, but this was the first song I heard by them. So it'll be the first you hear too.

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Monday, January 28, 2013

How many hours in a day?

I look at the clock.
7:15. Time to get up.

I look at the clock.
7:50. Go to class.

I look at the clock.
4:50. Almost done with classes for today.

I look at the clock.
5:07. Should probably go do something productive.

I look at the clock.
7:30. You have a meeting in fifteen minutes.

I look at the clock.
9:42. Finish your composition.

I look at the clock.
10:01. Go to the gym.

I look at the clock.
1.22. Should probably get some sleep...

And repeat.


Don't you wish you could go some place where none of it matters?
Stop clock-watching.
Forget your obligations.
Just be.

Doesn't that sound nice?

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

It started out with a kiss...

How did it end up like this?

Here are my resolutions:
  • Stop running away from my problems.
  • Be more receptive to others' ideas and opinions.
  • Don't let stress build up.
  • Don't put so much pressure on myself.
  • Be healthy.
Happy New Year.
2013? Let's do this.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

A Christmas Carol

"Who's she?"
"Nobody important."
"Nobody important? Blimey, that's amazing. You know that in nine hundred years of time and space, and I've never met anybody who wasn't important, before."
-Kazran and The Doctor